living life

saying what you said,

that love wouldn't be the same,

have you ever wonder,

if you were right back then?

you tell me what you believe in,

and you tell me what you lacking,

but from what i see,

it always been,

in front of you,

always inside of you

you are blinded,

by the truth they had insert you,

life is so simple but yet so complicated,

you are blinded,

by a scar that they had given to you,

but i would never leave you,

and wont let them get to you,

when you try to get away,

you said that you wouldnt need,

any help from anyone,

but in your eyes i see.....

it always in front of you,

the answer that you need,

but you dont want to acknowledge it,

like it was never there,

when you tell me that life's unfair,

and it's all not your fault,

but have you notice that god wont let,

you to always be alone.....

god wont always let you be alone,

never alone......

when everthing start to make sense

when you say i'll be lonely without you,

i believe in you,

when you say it would be a disaster,

i trust you,

but when everything start making sense and fall into place,

all your fact are lost,

by the truth of another truth,

when it all start to fall apart,

you'll always come and feed,

on the food that we make,

which is our believes.

taking time to think about my future and doing very slowly.

serious stuff...

why are guys such stupid species?? they can see some skinny bi**h and never see the ones would truely appreciate them that which is right under their noses....
really stupid....
i really think love at teen age is not even proper love...
it's not like it's going to stay till they get married or have kids or anything....
some it's just like changing clothes....
i mean seriously.... if you want attention on you.... be the drama queen of the school lah.....
you can get more attention as much as you like.....
or if you said that you "don't have enough love" because your "not loved by anyone".........
that is just plan bullshit........ if you say that no one loves you then i think you are just not greatfull of what you have that is still there......
imagine living without even one of your parents.... i know i'll die.......
you have to see that there are still a lot of people that loves you......
sometimes more then you know.......
back to the issue.....
guys are really stupid......ahhuh.....
seriously some guys they "love" their girlfriend soo much that when they break up.....
they start saying "i love you" or "i want you back"....that is just bullshit......
but i admit that i love a guy like that....
he is one of the most nicest guy thaty i've met...... i love him soo much......
cause everytime i said i've got over him ....
he just make me fall in love again and again and again for the past 8 years.......
i never got over him..... never.....
but he is also one of those kind that they say to love their girlfriends and never know that actually the girl have been playing him......
stupid guy.....

killing time(again)

omg!!!!!

today was the best day ever!!!!

saw two hot guys!!!!
so hot!!!!!

cant stand them!!!

the same guys we saw yesterday!!!!

such a coincidence!!!!

mom gave me two watches!!!!

Tissot and Alba.......

thank god she gave it to me....

and again another day of girls arguing bout things(not me or any of my friends)

there are"girls" that have been saying bad things bout my best friend and it is not nice....

but i dont think we sould do anything bout it.....

they are worhtless people that try to ruin our life,if we react the way that they wanted....

and i think this is hard to get over with......

cause it includes me...

but they made me realize and make me want to do what i wanna do......

they are nothing compare to us....

and since its our last year....

we dont care........

life as it isn't seen as..

well because i have nothing to do right now...

I'm going to talk about something.....

well, how bout this...

how do people get hurt?

well i think it's because of their stupidity......

but people get hurt in my ways.....

but i think it because of them their selves....

I've been hurt in many of ways but the thing that made me strong is my support from my family and friends.......

and i am a stupid person....

i admit it...

but we cant help ourselves to let people into our life and sometimes they hurt us....

its human nature....

but sometimes the people that hurt us dont realise that they are doing it......

now are we going to say it out loud or just let it swels up and then someday it WILL explode.......

i do that many times for many people but i took the risk of being hurt on my own.....

and not to mention outer hurtage....

when it swels up and then oneday it was just like BOOM!

and the people who hurt us still doent understand you should say to yourself "no one know me better then i know myself and if she doent uderstand it, its her choise no one can force her to"

and if you feel like your had a fall just pick yourslef up and start living like yesterday...

and make the best of what had happen today and take notice of what will hurt you.......

and how to manage our emotion with it.......

but as human we have a lot more to learn about hurting each other......

but always forgive and forget.....

that is one of the best ways of letting go of something that hurts you....

or you can just beat that person up and deal with it....

the one week holiday boredom.....

Happy Holidays!!!!!

If your holidaying.....

well lets just say im not....

but it just getting better......

i have extra classes.....

thank god its not that all bad.....

this week i must shop for hari raya....

if not there is no more time for it.............

i also just came back from penang....

for a one night only trip......

actually it was enjoyable.....

well to see my crazy sister.....

it will always be...

keeping myself faithfull

needless to say that im a little crazy. that true to anyone who knows me...

but to keep meself to be faithfull to my believe is hard.

sometimes there is just people that turn everything around and make me think twice on what i dont want to think it twice or two times.

dont let them into your head.

its just going to burden you head.

dont even think about it.

when we stop caring and listening then they will show the real them and they will stop.

or you can just bash them in the mouth to make it stop.